Staring at the screen
Hoping it would turn green
Your name flashing in front of me
My hands hover hesitantly
I pushed it first,
I pushed the button to hear you
And here I am praying you don’t answer.
Same words. Same phrases.
Never heard a different label.
Just as I thought it would be easy
This time around, I felt ……
Like yet another door slamming after me
The silence resounding
Thoughts penetrating.
Maybe I am wrong, or i maybe right
But the knot within me only gets tight-er
Feeling hollow and heavy, simultaneously
Maybe these were the things people brushed off unseriously.
I’m still here. Calling for you, to you
Needing you, wanting you
But us?
